I just...

I just cut my arm up real bad with a razor. Does that make me a bad person? I didn't tell my boyfriend I did it, that is breaking too many promises and he would get really upset. But I actually feel better. One moment I'm crying my eyes out, and the next I'm in my bathroom thinking about death, leaving another cut on my wrist and I feel fine. All the pain that is left now is a sting like feeling where I put the band aid. It was bleeding alot and I couldn't just cover it up with a sweatshirt. Maybe I have more problems then I thought... I tell my parents and by boyfriend all the time, 'I belong in the psyco hospital.' You know what they say? No you don't, or you don't belong there, you only think you do. It sucks! I don't deserve people telling me I'm wrong when I know dam weel I'm right. Besides, I think I'm correct about my own mind.